Sunday, September 20, 2009

Is Worry Worth It?

Since my blogging experience is very limited, I'm not sure what direction to take with mine. I may just have a potpourri of topics and stories. Please be patient while God and I try to find the direction for me.

This blog will be about something I have been dealing with lately, WORRYING! As a christian I know that all I have to do is lay the problem or worry at God's feet and He will take care of it. He already knows how it is going to end up anyway and all my interference could possibly do is mess things up.

Okay, that is my sensible side that just spoke. Let's hear from the not so sensible side now. It has always been my tendency to worry about something for a while then turn it over to God. Then I may take it back awhile, give to God, take it back, you see the pattern. I like to solve the problem that I am worrying about myself. I can't stand problems without answers and can't rest until the answer is found. I know, unrealistic isn't it?

There is a situation in my family right now that is causing me a lot of worry but there isn't a thing I can do to change the outcome or direction. Just this morning in church the pastor talked about this very thing and how all we have to do is take it to God, leave it and consider it answered. My heart knows that but my head doesn't seem to be able to grasp it.

I'd like to think that I'm not the only one who does this. Any others? Come on now, be honest! I thought so!

Why do we as humans who profess to be Christians refuse to step out in faith and accept God's help. Here we have Someone waiting in the wings telling us that He has the answer and would be happy to relieve us of our burden all we have to do is hand it over to Him. No strings attached or anything!

Worry is such an unhealthy thing too! It causes wrinkles, ulcers, headaches, just to name a few side effects. In my case it causes over eating! If I am stressed or worried I eat and eat and eat..................you get the picture. Then I have to add depression on top of worry because I hate too much! It's just a vicious circle!

Help me to accept God's help and put these worries in His hands so I can move on to something more fun!



Until next time

Love and Hugs!

Pam

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Soccer Time

Good morning,

Here it is day three of my blogging career and as of yet I have no followers! Or I had viewers who chose not to be followers! That's okay, I'm having fun pretending that someone out there is reading and enjoying these posts. (I forgot to give the website to my mom, she will read it!)
It is Saturday morning and once again time for soccer games. My oldest grandson, 8 year old Lane, plays soccer as does his 5 year old sister, Emma. Lane is a go getter on the field. He sees the ball coming his way and goes for it. We sit on the sidelines cheering, "Good kick Lane," "Way to go Lane," just to name a couple. Now when Emma's team plays we have different cheers for her. Emma's cheers are more like, "Emma, don't sit in the middle of the field!" or "Emma stop dancing and watch the ball!" After Emma's first practice her mommy decided that she would be a better cheerleader than player. Emma will finish the season but I doubt that she will continue her soccer career!
I myself have enjoyed a short career in soccer. When my youngest son Nathan, now 21, was 5 years old he wanted to play soccer. I signed him up for a team and waited for the phone call telling us when his first practice would be. We finally received a phone call but it wasn't about the first practice, it was to ask me if I would be a soccer coach! Those of you who don't know me don't realize the humor in that request. I am not athletically inclined. The only time I run is if I am being chased by someone I don't want to be caught by! My version of stair aerobics is going up and down the steps to switch laundry loads. I told the caller that I had never done that sort of thing and didn't think I would be good at it. He proceeded to tell me that I could do it, I would have help! You know the drill. So I reluctantly agreed.
I had the cutest little group of Peewee soccer players. I told them that we would learn the rules of soccer and just have fun. I have never been one of those competitors who are out for blood and the win. Winning is a plus, but for me it is all about having fun and no broken bones.
As the season progressed we held firm in our standing in the league, LAST! We didn't win a single game! I had some parents who probably would have lynched me had it been legal to do so. I told them in the beginning that if anyone wanted to step in and take over, go for it! It wouldn't hurt my feelings at all. Needless to say that was my only year as coach. I wasn't even traded to another team. I just brought drinks and snacks after that.
I am still reminded from time to time of my unsuccessful stint as a soccer coach, usually by one of my loving family members!
I am proud of the fact that I tried and gave it my best. That is all any of us can do.

Until next time,
Love and Hugs!
Pam

Friday, September 18, 2009

How to start filling the empty nest.

Good morning!
It is 5:49 am here in the midwest and I can't sleep! I'm unemployed and have no schedule to keep and I wake up so early! I'd be okay if my brain stayed asleep but once it kicks in and starts thinking about things forget it! I have already put in a load of laundry, folded a load and watched an old rerun of the Andy Griffith show! Now tell me I don't know how to have a good time!
What do we do now that the nest is empty? Being at home 24/7 you would think my house would be spotless, a good meal on the table and me twirling around like June Cleaver. I hate to bust your bubbles but I am more like Roseanne Conner!
I work better under chaos. If I have plenty of time and don't have a deadline, I am not very motivated. I tend to have the attitude, "Oh, it will be there tomorrow". Not a good practice but I am working on it. I have cooked two nights in a row, thank you very much! Okay, so most of it comes out of a box and isn't from scratch. If it involves more than 3 steps, that's home cooking to me!
I would really like to find a legit 'work from home job. I can't tell the scams from the good ones. I don't care if it's stuffing envelopes or folding flyers. The less brain activity the better! This is the time in my llfe where I am supposed to "find" myself. I'm lucky if I can find my keys or the remote let alone my purpose in life.
My daughter is very thoughtful though and is trying to help me with my empty nest. She has unselfishly offered any of her little birds at any time to help me with my loneliness. Isn't she a trooper? I am fortunate to have all 5 of my grandkids close to me. Four of them are just across the field and one is just a few miles away. We all live in the same town, just sort of spread out.
The 8 year old and 5 year old are playing soccer this year so I have thier games to look forward to. They are both in school (Second grade and pre-K) so there are school activities to attend.
Now I just need you all to help me figure out what I am supposed to do when the grandkids aren't around and the housework is caught up. (Well, as caught up as I ever get!)

Until next time,
Love and Hugs!
Pam

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Is Your Nest Empty Too?

Greetings to all who read this! (Both of you! lol)
I am brand spanking new at this blogging thing but I am excited to get into it! A friend of mine suggested it so here I am.
First I will tell you a little about myself. I am 51, married for 30 years (to the same man !), a mother of 3 and a grandmother of 5. I am currently unemployed by choice but sure do miss the paycheck. (My husband and I disagree on what my 'needs' are!)
I am a Christian and currently attend a non-denominational church. I am the daughter of a Baptist minister who made his journey to Heaven three years ago. He was very ill towards the end of his life so it was a blessing for his pain to end. He is missed very much but I know I will see him again. My mom is still here and doing well. She sang in the chior at church and was quite good.
I had one sibling, a younger brother, who was killed in a boating accident 3 years ago. He died just a few months after dad passed. He was so funny and just a wonderful guy. I miss him very much.
Now, one of the reasons I started this blog is because I am now an unwilling member of "The Empty Nest Club". My oldest child, a girl is 27, married and has four children ages 8, 5, 4, and 18mos. That is one full and lively nest! My middle child is 25, married and has one little age 18 mos. That nest isn't as full but he keeps it lively! My youngest is almost 21, and a junior in college. He attended a local college for the first two years but this year decided to attend a 'big boy' college in Cape Girardeau. Thus the empty nest!
I feel so lost right now that I feel like I have been put in a round room and told to sit in the corner! I went from being taken care of by mommy and daddy to being taken care of by a husband and then stayed at home to raise my own family. There was never any 'me' time. Now at age 51 I am supposed to find out what Pam is capable of and she doesn't have a clue!
I guess one of my primary goals for this blog is to possibly discover what I am supposed to be when I grow up!
I hope you stick with me and I look forward to reading your posts!

Love and Hugs!
Pam